lesson for the soul

You know how I said that I was tired? Well I had no idea how tired I was.

Yesterday I was meant to drive for an hour and a half to go to hang out with some people on The Blues Train. Well - it didn't happen. I spent about an hour trying to work out whether to go or not. In fact the two factors that made me decide were - the HEAVY rains that came and the fact that I was close to tears at the thought of travel and mixing.

This is not like me at all. I was feeling overwhelmed at the thought of mixing with others.

So I spent a productive day on the couch nuturing the soul. I listened to Soundrelief (concert for the bushfire victims) and played with the cat. I checked a few things out on the internet. I downloaded music and I started ripping my cds. I did the household shopping and ignored the housework.

This morning I woke up and feel much better. I am still quite tired but not in the bone weary, emotionally challenged place I was yesterday.

I realised that I need to sleep more regularly. The last fortnight or so, I have been going to bed about 11pm - or often closer to midnight, then waking up 5.30 or 6pm. Then I have been trying to teach my crazy load, work with my excellent student teacher, and work with many other tasks outside the classroom. I have also been socialising with new and sometimes, interesting people. I have been trying to do everything.

Note to self. You can't always do everything - but you need to rest if you want to try.

So I have had a good, long chat with myself. "Self" I said "early to bed on school nights. It doesn't matter if the show on tv is halfway through. Sunday to Thursday nights you MUST be in bed by 10pm. Friday and Saturday nights you may stay up later."

I did question myself - "What happens if you are out until 11pm on one night that is a school night?"

"Well, late to bed one night will mean early to bed the night before or the night after."

I also have challenged myself to become a little more focused in attending the gym. I am trying to prove that if you are physically fit you will be mor capable of dealing with more in your day. What do you think?