I stated that I am angry - this has caused an interesting reaction. People I know have asked me why. Yesterday morning I couldn't answer this. Now I can - or can to some degree.....
My neighbours - sheesh! As I stated yesterday they had a bit of a party up until 12.30 on Friday night, Saturday until midnight which is all just a little weird. Well I spoke too soon....they started up again at 9am yesterday morning. Radio blaring, laughing and joking loudly on the fence line AND then they lit the dreaded wood burner thing they have. My house now stinks of wood smoke. I went out yesterday for the whole day so I am not sure how long they were yahooing for.
I'm frustrated that I am not where I thought I would be - ie home ownership. I am still renting so the neighbours really frustrate me as I would LOVE to move but still saving really hard until I can purchase something.....it feels like it is such a long way away......months until I purchase.
Now I am tired (I didn't get home until 2am but it was great sitting having a good natter with friends) and on edge as I don't know when the neighbours will fire up again. I have that gag thing going (sorry if you're eating at the moment) that means that I am unable to swallow cleanly etc. Very frustrating when you want to have something to eat...
Before getting excessively tired I noticed that I am sickening - sore throat, headachy etc. Now I normally do get a bit grumpy when I am getting sick but it was only a small part of it. So this just added to my anger.
There are a few hormonal reasons for my anger but I wouldn't give it too much weight.
Then finally I have lucked out again in the world of dating. Interested guy, dinner, plans to catch up again, stood up. That's as simple as I can put it.
I wouldn't say that I am focusing on this but everyone else around me have used this as the reason to explain my anger. It's been fascinating. I have learnt this last weekend that if you say that you are angry, people need a reason pretty quickly. I know I do if someone around me says that they are angry. There is something a little disconcerting about having someone near you who seems edgy with no apparent reason.
The honest truth is that I am hurt by the situation that occurred with this bloke but I am not angry at him. I am frustrated at my reaction to the situation but again I am not that angry over it.
Today I am not so angry. I am more frustrated and edgy. The anger has subsided - but I will be using the emotion of it to complain to my estate agent about the neighbours AGAIN!
I would like to calm down a bit more as I am very wary of saying something to someone with the aggression that could cause a knockout blow to a friendship.
I will see how the day pans out.